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Now playing: Dear Diary - We are the End
Windows Open: Facebook, FML, tfln, msn.
Mood: All over the place.

Oh wow. Looking back at my last post, it was REALLY lousy. So, to make up for my lack of Blogging, i shall write a super epic long blog (maybe).

The reason i haven't been wasting my time typing up everything that's already etching itself into my mind is because surprisingly enough, i studied. Kind of.
I told myself i wouldn't blog until exams were over, and now they are, so here i am, jumping back into my old habits all over again.

Oh look, THE conversation opened. Ignore.

So, exams.
I'm not one of those people that says they did really bad, and ends up in the top percentile. When i say i did poorly, I've done poorly. No questions about it. So here it comes, I've done really poorly.
When it comes to school, i don't have high standards or anything, I like to do well - with minimal effort. School is not the be all and end all of my existence. I like to think there are more important values in a person rather than just academic intelligence.

School isn't my favourite topic, how about i move right along to something easier to write about...

In the past two and a half weeks, my moods have been kinda like the share market. Upturn. Downturn. Contraction. Expansion. Crash. Boom. Skyrocketing. In short, fluctuating. (the economics is getting to me). Just as a side issue, i hate how i always get the squeeky table or the dodgy chair or, on a 'good' day, i might just get both, in an exam.
There have been a number of issues constantly on my mind, and i don't mean to use this blog as an online diary or a medium through which i tell everyone my whole life story to the very last, most intricate detail, but things have been fucking confuzzling.

First there's the Boy issue.
Then there's everyone around me.
Its all just so 'emotional' *melodramatic*

I feel things, that i don't WANT to feel. I don't WANT to hate, I don't WANT to feel 'love' *rolls eyes*. I don't want to constantly be thinking "What am i going to do with myself? What happens after school? What if my occupation won't be able to sustain a family? What if i never get married! :O" Yes, very 'mature' questions. things i shouldn't be worrying about, just yet.
Argh, but its something i have minimal control over. This is Silent-J overthinking. I do that often. (How lame, i just called myself silent-j)

Wow, poor structure much? My teachers always tell me i have poor essay structure, that i jump all over the place. I apologise in advance if this makes your head hurt.

The boy. Ah the boy. I don't know what to say about him really. I could say alot of things, but that would give it away. I think i'll keep my mouth shut on that topic.

So, what's new you ask? (I feel like i'm talking to myself)
Well, school holiays have started, no homework, no assignments andno teachers or pupils i don't like to deal with. In come the late sleepless nights, 3pm sleep ins, going out and catching up with friends i don't get to see as often. BEACH!
List of people to catch up with:
1. Alexander.
2. Judy and Kirra
3. Caleb and associates.
4. Damien.
5. Anyone i've forget to put on this list considering i'm only skimming the surface. I'm too mentally exhausted for in depth thinking. (hypochondriac much?)

Places to go:
1. City!
2. BEACH!
3. Not shopping.
4. Movies.
5. Gym
6. Anywhere else that gets me out of the house.

Aim: Let my social life Flourish one last time before year twelve hits.

Upcoming Events:
Tonight: Movie night with the girls!
Saturday: Work 7-10 morning bakery shift eugh
Sunday: Grandfinal (Y)
Monday: Hair?
Tight Ass Tuesday: Movies maybe?
...i dunno, plan as you go (Y)

I said i was going to make this one epic, didn't i? I lied. Shoot me.

Have fun, play it 'safe', keep it sexy.

-silent-j